July 17th, 2013


Sometimes I am very, very sad

No, I am certainly not depressed.  I've had highs and lows but I think I've been able to maintain good mental health and I am aware of the times when I need to vent or just have a few tears to calm down.

However, there are things very horribly wrong with people today.  I knew Anime Expo had drama but this really just sickens me.  I really hope this Tony person is not a Tony I know because if it was, I might just cry.

When I think about some of the people around me (mostly from work) or the people who are in power or are popular nowadays, I feel pretty worried for our society and for the future.  It's funny to see people doing silly things and answering tests with ridiculously wrong answers, but it's also scary.  Some people are being genuine in making horrible choices.  And when I think about this, and how difficult it would be for them to understand they need to improve or how much more difficult it would be for them to implement any improvements, I feel so profoundly sad for all of us.

We are creative and free and technologically advanced, but we are empty and moving too quickly with most of us not realizing that the empty space needs to be filled to begin with.  Not filled full of many things, but fitted with the right thing.

I think when I was a more quiet/shy/withdrawn person in high school (I"m sure some of you can't imagine lol), I think I actually valued and maybe even enjoyed being sad occasionally.  To an extent I still do.  Obviously, being able to sympathize and feel sad in the first place is not a bad thing.  However, it's probably not so great when it's over something that has little chance of improving.